Everything is so Intense on that night it feels like they don't know each other, like a total stranger.
"Why did you leave me, again and showed up suddenly like nothing happened?" xyllise said while bitterly talking.
"I'm Sorry" two words but have a deep meaning for me, a word that can prove his mistakes and betrayal.
She cried. She's trying to stop her tears but she can't. She can feel the pain coming out of her heart, and xyllise had to decide if she's going to let him go or not. But she choose to let him go.
"I love you----" since I met you she said. "Bu-t Its enough" she continue.
"Now that you prove to me that you do not deserve my trust and my love. I forgive you and I'm setting myself free from those pain that you cause. 1 year of friendship and pretending of my feelings is enough and now I know who you really are, you did not appreciate all my efforts so I made my decision to let you go and serve God with all my heart and give him 100% of my love" she said and she walked out falling her tears.
She cried and cried until she release all the pain then she got up and decided to moved on and forget all the memories with lucas. Xyllise encounter God and she surrender everything to him realizing her worth as a woman to have change and forget the past without resenting lucas, on her 3 days encounter there are so many revelations and realizations to her and it helps a lot to her to keep moving on.
Months has passed xyllise totally healed and restored all her brokenness. by God she finally found her purpose that she deserved more because she's a child of God someone who can love her more than she could imagine so she choose to be with God to win souls and make disciple and now she knows what is her calling. But one day lucas came to her wanting xyllise to get back because he now realize his mistakes before and now that he already change and he ask xyllise if she could give him one more chance to prove himself.
"I forgive you lucas" xyllise said.
"but I already devoted my self serving God, thank you for all the memories and the lesson you teach me , thank you for being my friend and I will never forget you, you are always in my heart" she continue.
Xyllise didn't gave lucas another chance because she's already happy and the joy of serving God can't compare to the joy of being with him or having a boyfriend. It's priceless so I can't go back to the things that God already set me free.
I Xyllise buckwhet 18 years old a child of God and I realized that the plan of the Lord is 10x better than my plan. Love is also not to fight but also to surrender setting him/her free it's a most painful way but how can God give you the things you deserved if there are no rooms in your heart. Let go and Let God decide for you.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, and always persevere. Love never fails when it fail it is not love. (1 Cor. 13:4-8)