I don't know what to do I feel alone. I never felt such a deep emotion before there is a feeling of surprise and I want to tell about this to someone I care about and love but there is no one to talk. Nothing makes me happy now I don't care about anything I can't even think clearly but I am not afraid of anything it just feels very strange and force me to ask questions about my existence when I tries to answer who am I and what really I want to do there is really no end to my answers.
I want to sleep now maybe I get my answer in my dream but It doesn't work now I can't sleep with such loneliness. I don't want to think about how I ended up alone because it hurts my heart so much that I try to take revenge on every person that hurts me. Surprisingly they don't know how I feel now. They are not on my side when I need them I try to ignore it by saying that maybe my friends are not in a situation of helping me it just changed my views about them, still I am alone under dark clouds.
I don't know why these clouds start raining but now I can cry under these clouds. The pain given by some people leads to turn my back against the people that really like me and my true friends. I want to feel more pain now because I kind of like this loneliness it is like I am orbiting a sun so close that I lost my all senses and it is burning my soul I can feel the flames. I can't leave the sun's orbit because I am alone.